For A Change, It’s Not Me Who Said, “I’m Gay”

What shocks me up to this very moment is what one of my closest friends in college confessed to me. Over the months, I’ve gotten used to out-ing myself to a few people close to me. But it’s a lot different feeling when it’s the other way around. My orgmate and I were out having dinner when he opened up again having to tell me something. He was actually dropping hints the whole day, “I have to tell you something. But I doubt you’d be able to keep it to yourself.” And so he never really finished saying anything. I didn’t push the topic. Then in the middle of our meals, there it went. He didn’t tell me exactly, I’m guessing he’s still too shy to use the word, like how I used to be last February.

The revelation did not stop there, however. His mother already knew. I was surprised and kind of envious since I already dismissed the idea of me telling my parents I’m gay anytime soon. I was too proud of him, though, when I realized what he has just shared. Such a young guy already having that courage I don’t have.

To put cherry on top and to conclude our dinner, he said he is seeing someone right now. My jaw dropped. He resumed with their meet-ups, sweet nothings, and just everything that I have not been able to do in the course of my “being out”.

 I am truly happy for him. I welcome him to the word of flamboyance and freedom.

How I Spent My Sembreak

50% Friends

5% Sleep

5% Baguio, Zambales

5% The Voice

15% Grey’s Anatomy

5% Gone Girl, The Geography Club 1 & 2, countless eroticas :p

5% Candy Crush

5% Org tasks

Sembreak Update

My last sembreak as an undergraduate student began yesterday. Seeing my thesis proposal got stamped with the time and date of submission, all I could think of was finishing the third season of The Walking Dead and the books I'll be able to read in my around three-week vacation.

Currently I was able to mark off the things I planned. Already in the 10th episode of TWD. Finished Jeffery Self's 50 Shades of Gay (don't judge!). Halfway through Brent Hartunger's Geography Club.

I'm in Olongapo right now, stopping over before we go to Baguio tomorrow. Can't wait. It has been 5 years since I last went to the summer capital, probably the longest time I have not been there ever since.

Ron and I met yesterday for a meeting. Sadly, we were with others. :p But that did not stop me from flirting with him. Pero chos lang. :)

Cheers to a fun sembreak! :D

Mixed Feels

After a long delay I was able to watch UP Repertory Company's LEAN: THE MUSICAL earlier!
The lead cast Mr. Alub is so cute :'( could not contain myself earlier. Stalked him already and found out he's in a relationship. :p

But wait! There's more! After a week of not seeing each other, Ron (will call him this from now on :3) and I finally reunited before the play started. He hugged me and told me he missed me. FUCK how can you not fall for a guy like that?

Midnight Owl

So I found this really cool cozy place in Maginhawa called Midnight Owl, thanks to my equally unproductive-in-own-house friend. I was on my way home from Shaw when I realized the submission for my thesis proposal is only two weeks away and I’ve only started a few revisions. It has been two weeks since my thesis defense and I believe I was only able to do 5% of everything that was advised to me by the panelists.

Back to the study hub, the atmosphere is so relaxing I’m thinking of abandoning my house. The wall colors and lightings are soothing to the eyes, actually everything inside the place. There’s this huge blackboard with the menu and the counter has all these mini blackboard-like notes and cute objects like the tip jar, wake-up forms and free notepad.

When ordering, you have to click the buzz button and suddenly some accommodating girl will appear from the door behind. The menu ranges from teas to shakes to breakfast meals and sandwiches. And with this kind of place, the prices are pretty cheap. Milk teas for around P80, shakes around P60, breakfast meals for P89, and. P80 sandwiches. The most expensive I can see now is their roast beef with mashed potatoes for the price of P179.

Right now, I just ordered banana shake and fries for an economical P108. I won’t discuss the taste since I don’t think it’s their specialty but I must say they are decent.

The playlist is as soothing; right now, it's Coldplay's The Scientist that's playing. 

The other people here are likewise cooperative minimal talking and movements lol. And there's this cute guy at my right. Well I'm not sure if he's cute or it's just because he's the only guy here aside from myself, if you consider me one.

This is getting too long! I need to do finish my drink and resume my thesis. Bye!